throwing shit at the wall. im not adding a warning for anything . smaller entries wont be folded

Who fucking asks like that?.

Way past adult years and it still puckers their lips out to meet the chip and stuff 3-4 of them in its mouth at the same time like a child, one of them hanging halfway in its mouth and hanging of its lip. Who asks like that at that age?
It constantly challanges people and repeat after them constantly, especially the one person in the house who openly doesn't fucking like it. And then they laugh whenever the other person snaps back and get irritated. It tries to frame it as trying to keep the mood light hearted, and instead of relenting it repeats themselves in a whiney, self victimizing tone. While insisting, either things that it has obviously done or things that don't matter and can easily be interpreted in a aggravating manner, that they should still apologize for Intention Vs. impact. That it didn't do any of them and infact it is a sweet little baby angel who everybody has a vendetta against.
It constantly fawns and trip over itself for attention for people who don't need nor want to give it to it, or when it is most definitely not the time to be acting like that. It's fucked up haggle someone to make you food then let it sit there and not eat it? You know how fucking rude it is to make someone prep meals for it or force them to cook meals only it eats and then because the person is irritated that they are both wasting ingredients, time, and fridge space, you refuse to eat it because it has bad 'vibes'. Especially since it doesn't work and the person it's haggling, Does.
It keeps feeding the dog or chicken-bones which causes him to either choke or throw up, or seafood which he is allergic to. It refuses to keep it's hands to itself, after much insisting that from your grandson to please not touch and grab his arms without his permissions why do you insist at doing it? Who gets tipsy at its 19yo grandsons birthday and haggles a seperate table insisting that they should say happy birthday to him? Who tries to take a photo with a birthday cake on someone elses birthday? Who gawks and spills about the personal struggles of the house to the uber driver? What is wrong with you. There is no clear reality where someone still thinks they are justified in every scenerio, It's either doing it intentionally(Which is likely.) or need to be sent far, Far away where someone else can better care for it instead of haunting and harrassing this house.

I don't fucking care about politics none of it matters anyways

People are always hassiling along about politics and policy changes and always pushing for people to vote vote vote! and peaceful protest and enough hugging will make a change. None of it matters, none of it ever will, people still act like america is a democracy but theres really little evidence to suggest that posing or opposing actually changes the direction if these laws will get passed or not. Do you know what will get them passed or not? Lobbying or whatever the wealthy few think will stroke their pockets the best. Nobody actually cares about surviving this, nobody is trying to help out their neighbors or actually keep in contact with the vurnable few that when-not if- shit gets bad will be either targetted or discarded. Nobody actually wants to make a harsher push and direct action to make things better all of them are just larping as SJW and fake twitter activist in their echochamber with the occasional vague post about violence towards goverment officals for twitter likes.

Everbody in this house fucking irritates me.

stuck

My mother doesn't believe in mental health shit, she refuses to even consider I might be a little odd. I can't do shit now, I can't focus on doing Homeschool, I can't focus on washing my ass, I can barely focus on this website. She doesn't even fucking care that I'm not doing my Homeschool, she just 'scolds' me about doing it before dropping the subject entirely. I'm too fucking retarded to do anything else and to get myself out of here. A few years ago I asked if I could walk across the fucking street to buy snacks from the cornerstore and she started blabbing about random true crime shit, she wants to keep me here and keep me retarded but she asks like she doesn't. She doesn't even fucking parent anymore and she asks like she does. I went to the movies for the first time since I was single digits and I've kept the memorbilia because it was one of the first times i went outside in a good year or so. The only other times being for glasses and bullshit. She swears i can socialize but i can't and i can tell but she asks like it isn't blatantly obvious that I'm socially retarded. My memory is failing, we moved into this new house(that they couldn't afford) only three years ago and I don't remember anything before this house. It's like every shitty little thing lined up to doom me to fail, there's a bridge I could walk to.